Day 21: Climbing back on the wagon
I’ve already managed to blow off my gym plan, but I’ve got a 5-day step goal streak going, so I’m gonna take that as a win. Unfortunately, I don’t feel as excited and pumped about this challenge as I did before. I’ve been feeling out of sorts lately. I’m stuck in some sort of funk or rut, or whichever is the best way to describe it.
The thing is, I’ve gained back some of the weight I’d lost these past few months. Realistically, it’s probably only about 5 lbs, but when you’re as short as I am, that translates to anywhere from one to two clothing sizes. In terms of measurements, my waist size seems to have increased by a whole two inches. My super comfy jeans are now super tight jeans, and the muffin top I’d finally managed to get rid of, is back with a vengeance. I feel gross.
But, instead of feeling motivated by this to climb back on the wagon, I feel stuck. I’m in that spot; you know, the one where you know you need to make a change – and you want to make a change – but you just can’t get yourself to actually do it. So, instead of making positive changes, you just make worse choices.
I have a Bod Pod appointment tomorrow, so I’m hoping my latest results will give me the kick in the ass I need to shake this funk. I don’t feel all that confident about it though. I know I need to change my mindset, but that’s just not where I’m at right this moment. Hopefully, I’ll feel differently tomorrow.