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Day 63: Another Bod Pod on the books

Today was another Bod Pod day. Usually, I try to go on a monthly basis, but lately it’s been a bit more sporadic due to scheduling issues. My last appointment was on March 5th, and it wasn’t a good one. After steadily losing weight and fat lbs over the last year, I fell off the wagon and gained a significant chunk of it back.

Date % Fat % Fat Free Mass Fat Mass Fat Free Mass Body Mass
10/25/2018 26.1 73.9 31.518 lbs 89.209 lbs 120.728 lbs
1/25/19 27.8 72.2 34.409 lbs 89.443 lbs 123.852 lbs
3/5/2019 29.8 70.2 37.670 lbs 88.765 lbs 126.431 lbs

Today, six weeks after my last appointment, I went in feeling a tad bit hopeful. I wasn’t expecting any huge changes – the scale hadn’t moved much and I only lost an inch or two off my waist – but I did want to see some improvement. Despite all of the ups and downs these past few weeks, I felt like I did better overall compared to the beginning of the year. No, I didn’t go to the gym as planned, but I did go more often. And although I struggled to get a step goal streak going, I walked more steps on average. I don’t think I necessarily ate any less, but I did make some better food choices. Surely that must have done something, right? 

Well…

Date % Fat % Fat Free Mass Fat Mass Fat Free Mass Body Mass
10/25/2018 26.1 73.9 31.518 lbs 89.209 lbs 120.728 lbs
1/25/19 27.8 72.2 34.409 lbs 89.443 lbs 123.852 lbs
3/5/2019 29.8 70.2 37.670 lbs 88.765 lbs 126.431 lbs
4/15/2019 27.6 72.4 34.316 lbs 89.799 lbs 124.116 lbs

It did! Woo hoo!

Despite not being perfect, I lost 3 lbs of fat and gained 1 lb of fat free mass. I’m tempted to attribute some of those improvements on the Bod Pod’s error margin, but I need this win, so I’m not gonna. Instead, I’m going to feel good about it and use it to get motivated to do more.  I think I’m finally really ready to start reaching my goals.

Happy Monday!

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Day 52: I ate a mountain of french fries

I’ve been feeling pretty proud of myself the last few days. I am on a 5-day step goal streak, I’ve been hitting the gym, and I’ve managed to get more mindfulness and water into my daily life. I’ve also been doing pretty ok with the whole avoiding gluten and dairy thing – it hasn’t felt as hard as I expected it to be.

Until today.

Today sucked. Or rather, this evening sucked.

The day started out all right. I had some bone broth soup for breakfast. I went to the gym. I did some work and a little meal prepping. I even volunteered at my daughter’s school for a couple of hours. It was turning out to be a nice, productive day. Then we went out for dinner after visiting the poop museum (yup, you read that right, a museum dedicated to poop). My daughter wanted a burger and I figured I’d be able to find something I could eat there too, so we went to the burger spot.

Well, it turns out I was wrong – oh so very wrong. This place only serves cheeseburgers, and asking for a burger without the cheese and/or bun just isn’t a thing. That’s just not how it works here. So, while everyone else enjoyed what they excitedly described as “the best burgers they’ve tasted since moving to Japan,” I ate a mountain of fries.

I have never wanted a burger so badly in my life.

It was awful. That meal was a slap-in-the-face reminder that having to avoid gluten and dairy sucks big ones. It legit hurt my feelings.

I know I should focus on the fact that I managed to resist the temptation. I should be proud of myself for staying strong and all that bullshit; but truthfully, I just feel shitty about it.

I keep telling myself that it’s just food and that cravings are just mind games your brain plays with you, but it still feels crappy. It still makes me sad. I mean, I love food. Food is life!

But, all that being said, I’m going to bed tonight without stomach pains and I’m not running to the bathroom every few minutes. I feel good physically, even if I don’t feel so swell emotionally – and that’s a good thing. I can’t expect it to always be easy. I know it’s going to be hard more often than not, but in the end, despite the suck, it will be worth it – even if I can’t take comfort in that fact right now.

Day 49: Am I crazy?

One of the most frustrating things I’ve encountered since being diagnosed with hypothyroidism is how my doctors have chosen to treat it (or not treat it). My care has been limited to just enough medication to get my TSH, T4, and T3 in the “normal range,” without regard to whether or not my symptoms are actually improving.

My current doctor has been a welcome change to that sort of previous care. She believes in ensuring I am taking enough medication to reduce my symptoms, regardless of where on the range I am. Unfortunately, like other doctors, though that’s about the extent of her treatment plan for me.

I don’t want to be that person who goes online, reads a bunch of blogs and articles, and then believes they know more than a medical professional. I don’t want to claim that I’ve earned my MD from Google university, but I also can’t help but wonder if there truly is a knowledge gap in conventional medicine when it comes to basic lifestyle changes and how that influences the body.

We know the foods we eat can make us sick. Overeating can lead to obesity, which can result in all sorts of health conditions. Diabetes can be caused by an improper diet. Clogged arteries can lead to heart attacks – stuff like that. So, why shouldn’t we consider how the foods we eat and the things we do each day affect our health?

And I’m not just referring to exercise or the foods we eat, I’m referring to our mental state as well.  There are studies that have shown that a positive outlook can influence a patient’s recovery from an illness or injury, and I’m pretty sure I’ve read that stress can cause all sorts of illnesses, so isn’t it possible that our mental health could impact our physical health in other ways too?

I don’t intend to stop taking my medication or stop going to my doctor. But I do intend to take ownership of my health. I have full control over all of the lifestyle stuff. I don’t need my doctor in order to eat better and be more active. As long as I’m not going against her guidance (which is to keep taking my medication), there’s no harm in trying to make positive lifestyle changes in hopes of improving my overall health.

That being said, I would like her to run a few additional tests for me, just to see if I have any of the nutrient deficiencies associated with Hashimoto’s. I don’t want to supplement recklessly and make myself worse by taking stuff I don’t need. I want to be able to make educated decisions on what supplements to take, if any – and for that I need her help.

Therein lies the problem though, I don’t know how to ask her, and possibly convince her, to run these additional tests without coming off as a wannabe “Google MD.” It should be as easy as just asking, but for some reason, it feels way harder. I’m not sure where to go from here.

Day 47: An unwanted reminder

Last night I decided to drink the chuhai a friend had left in my fridge after our weekly Taco Tuesday dinner this week. Chuhais are these canned, fruity, boozy drinks that are sold here in Japan. They’re delicious, but they have a lot of carbonation in them, so I don’t drink them often. They tend to fill me up really quickly.

I’ve been trying to cut back on how much alcohol I drink though, so instead of making myself the usual Maker’s and Coke, I went with the chuhai instead.

Fast forward to now: I’ve spent the day with some slight nausea, a dull headache, and a little stomach cramping. I’ve been trying to figure out what I might have eaten since yesterday that could be causing me to feel so gross – I’m starting to think it may have been that chuhai. Truthfully, I didn’t stop to consider whether or not it has gluten in it when I drank it. I just grabbed it out of the fridge and took a sip, assuming it was ok.

Unfortunately, the ingredients are all in Japanese, and Googling has yielded me no useful results in determining whether or not chuhais contain gluten. I feel fairly certain that everything else I ate was safe though, it’s the only thing I’m unsure about, so that has to be it, right?

Regardless, this incident has quickly turned into an uncomfortable reminder that I need to make more of a conscious effort if I’m going to be successful at avoiding gluten and dairy. It’s going to be a bit harder than I thought – not that I thought it would be easy. Fortunately, I’m still feeling positive about my chances of doing better going forward. I just need to figure out how to make myself feel better today.

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