Day 63: Another Bod Pod on the books

Today was another Bod Pod day. Usually, I try to go on a monthly basis, but lately it’s been a bit more sporadic due to scheduling issues. My last appointment was on March 5th, and it wasn’t a good one. After steadily losing weight and fat lbs over the last year, I fell off the wagon and gained a significant chunk of it back.

Date % Fat % Fat Free Mass Fat Mass Fat Free Mass Body Mass
10/25/2018 26.1 73.9 31.518 lbs 89.209 lbs 120.728 lbs
1/25/19 27.8 72.2 34.409 lbs 89.443 lbs 123.852 lbs
3/5/2019 29.8 70.2 37.670 lbs 88.765 lbs 126.431 lbs

Today, six weeks after my last appointment, I went in feeling a tad bit hopeful. I wasn’t expecting any huge changes – the scale hadn’t moved much and I only lost an inch or two off my waist – but I did want to see some improvement. Despite all of the ups and downs these past few weeks, I felt like I did better overall compared to the beginning of the year. No, I didn’t go to the gym as planned, but I did go more often. And although I struggled to get a step goal streak going, I walked more steps on average. I don’t think I necessarily ate any less, but I did make some better food choices. Surely that must have done something, right? 

Well…

Date % Fat % Fat Free Mass Fat Mass Fat Free Mass Body Mass
10/25/2018 26.1 73.9 31.518 lbs 89.209 lbs 120.728 lbs
1/25/19 27.8 72.2 34.409 lbs 89.443 lbs 123.852 lbs
3/5/2019 29.8 70.2 37.670 lbs 88.765 lbs 126.431 lbs
4/15/2019 27.6 72.4 34.316 lbs 89.799 lbs 124.116 lbs

It did! Woo hoo!

Despite not being perfect, I lost 3 lbs of fat and gained 1 lb of fat free mass. I’m tempted to attribute some of those improvements on the Bod Pod’s error margin, but I need this win, so I won’t. Instead, I’m going to feel good about it and use it to get motivated to do more.  I think I’m finally really ready to start reaching my goals.

Happy Monday!

Day 52: I ate a mountain of french fries

The last few days, I’ve been feeling pretty proud of myself. I am on a 5-day step goal streak, I’ve been hitting the gym, and I’ve managed to get more mindfulness and water into my daily life. I’ve also been doing pretty ok with the whole avoiding gluten and dairy thing – it hasn’t felt as hard as I expected it to be.

Until today.

Today sucked. Or rather, this evening sucked.

The day started out all right. I had some bone broth soup for breakfast. I went to the gym. I did some work and a little meal prepping. I even volunteered at my daughter’s school for a couple of hours. It was turning out to be a nice, productive day. Then we went out for dinner after visiting the poop museum (yup, you read that right, a museum dedicated to poop). My daughter wanted a burger and I figured I would be able to find something I could eat there too, so we went to the burger spot.

Well, it turns out they only serve cheeseburgers at this place, and asking for a burger with no cheese or bun just isn’t a thing. That’s just not how it works here; so while everyone else had what they described as the best burgers they’ve tasted since moving to Japan, I ate a mountain of fries.

I have never wanted a burger so bad in my life.

It was awful. That meal was a slap-in-the-face reminder that having to avoid gluten and dairy sucks big time. It legit hurt my feelings.

I know I should focus on the fact that I managed to resist the temptation. I should be proud of myself for staying strong and all that; but truthfully, I sort of feel a bit down about it instead.

I keep telling myself that it’s just food and that cravings are really just mind games your brain plays with you, but it still feels crappy. It still makes me feel kind of sad. I mean, I love food. It means all sorts of things to me. I also love doing whatever I want – I don’t do well with rules and restrictions, just ask any of my previous supervisors from back in the day.

But, I’m going to bed tonight without stomach pains. I’m not running to the bathroom every few minutes. I feel good physically, even if I don’t feel so swell emotionally, and that’s a good thing. I can’t expect it to always be easy. It’s going to be hard more often than not, but in the end, despite the suck, it will be worth it – even if I can’t take comfort in that fact right now.

Day 47: An unwanted reminder

Last night I decided to drink the chuhai a friend had left in my fridge after our weekly Taco Tuesday dinner this week. Chuhais are these canned, fruity, boozy drinks they sell here in Japan. They’re delicious, but they have a lot of carbonation in them, so I don’t drink them often. They fill me up really quickly.

I’ve been trying to cut back on how much alcohol I drink though, so instead of making myself my usual Maker’s and Coke, I decided to drink the chuhai instead.

Fast forward to now, I’ve spent the day with some slight nausea, dull headache, and a little stomach cramping. I’ve been going over what I’ve eaten since yesterday in my head, trying to figure out what’s triggered this sudden backwards slide in how I feel, but I couldn’t figure it out until just now: it must have been that chuhai. I didn’t even stop to consider whether or not it has gluten in it when I grabbed it out of the fridge and took that first sip.

Granted, the ingredients are all in Japanese, and my Googling has yielded no results in terms of confirming or denying the existence of gluten in chuhais. But, everything else I ate was safe – it’s the only outlier. That had to be it.

Regardless, this has served as a reminder that I need to make more of a conscious effort if I’m going to be successful at avoiding gluten and dairy. It’s going to be a bit harder than I thought, and I already figured it wouldn’t be easy. Fortunately, I’m still feeling positive about my chances of doing it successfully. Now if I could just make myself feel better today.

Day 38: “Healing” my thyroid?

I’ve struggled this week, not just with meeting my step goal, but with making positive choices overall. Today though, I’m really feeling it. I had all these plans for the day, but I just can’t seem to motivate myself to do anything. I feel sort of out of it. Instead of doing some work, going to the gym, or cleaning the house, I’m sitting here Googling stuff about my thyroid.

I think I mentioned in my first go around that I have hypothyroidism. I recently had my blood tests redone and although I haven’t met with my doctor yet to go over the results, they were uploaded to my online medical record and it looks like she might be officially diagnosing me with Hashimoto’s.

I’ve suspected my hypothyroidism is a result of Hashimoto’s for a while now based on prior lab results, but I’ve never really considered having it confirmed or doing anything about it. Last December though, I started to give it a lot more thought. I skimmed through a few books, read some blogs, did all the Dr. Google stuff people do, and in the end, decided to make only one New Year’s Resolution for 2019: to take better care of my health.

I started the year off by trying to avoid gluten and dairy. Both are considered to be inflammatory and it seems a lot of people with Hashimoto’s have seen positive improvements by avoiding these. Unfortunately, I underwent an emergency surgery less than two weeks into the new year and have struggled to get back to it since then.

This month, I added both items to my tracking spreadsheet and my doctor ordered tests to confirm whether or not I’m suffering from milk and gluten intolerance. I’ve avoided both here and there, but not consistently. Today though, I’m thinking that needs to change. Me being me, I created a spreadsheet of all my lab test results and it doesn’t look good – my results seem to be getting worse. Will avoiding gluten and milk help like the internet says it will? I don’t know, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to give it a try.

So, that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to commit to it and I’m going to keep tracking my test results to see if it helps. Worst case scenario it doesn’t, but best case scenario it does. Either way, no harm, no foul right?

 

 

Day 33: Tracking things

When I committed to giving this challenge another try, I told myself that I would stick to one goal or habit at a time. Once I was able to successfully keep that goal/habit for at least seven days straight, then I could consider adding another one.

But me being me, I created a new tracking sheet after my most recent Bod Pod and put a whole bunch of stuff on it. I didn’t set any new goals and I didn’t commit to religiously tracking everything, but I did tell myself that I would at the very least try to track these things. And I have for the most part.

Maybe it’s my inner nerd, but I love spreadsheets. I like having the data to analyze afterward and see how the different things I do affect how I feel, how I look, and what I am able to do. It makes this process seem less like hard work and more like some science experiment – kind of how I approached my other goals the first time around. That change in viewpoint has really made a difference for me when I’ve struggling to overcome a challenge and stick with a goal in the past. I’m hoping it’ll day the same this time around too.

My spreadsheet also serves as a great visual reminder to stay on track towards making these positive changes. I hung it up on the pantry door in my kitchen. There’s nothing else hanging there, so it doesn’t get lost among other papers like the stuff I hang on the fridge does. I see it everyday. And although I guess it could make me feel bad by showcasing my “failures,” so far I’ve found it to be motivating instead – to a certain extent. It doesn’t seem to motivate me to hit my step goal every day. But, it doesn’t take away my motivation either, so no harm no foul?

How to motivate myself to stick with my step goal seems to be like something I need to think about more. I mean, that is the whole point of this challenge, right?

Day 23: Bod Pod Results

My Bod Pod results from yesterday were just as bad as I expected them to be. From October to now, my body fat percentage has increased from 26.1% to 29.8%, and I’ve gained a little over 6 lbs of fat. The worst part is, more than half that increase happened in the last 6 weeks.

Yesterday’s results:

Results from January 25th:

Despite my not-so-great results, I felt pretty motivated to get back on track yesterday. I made some healthy food, went to the gym, and tried my best to get all of my steps in early. I was on a roll until right after dinner time. Then it all went to shit. I felt tired, little man was cranky, and I just felt overwhelmed.

Although I didn’t binge on junk food or anything like that, I did have a drink or two and then went to bed – without checking my step total for the day. Just like that, I ruined my latest streak. I missed my goal by around 3,000 steps.

It’s ok though. I’ll get right back to it today. My next Bod Pod is scheduled for April 15th. I feel confident I can get a new streak going while working towards getting my body fat percentage moving in the right direction.

Day 21: Climbing back on the wagon

I’ve already managed to blow off my gym plan, but I’ve got a 5-day step goal streak going, so I’ll take that as a win. Unfortunately, I don’t feel as excited and pumped about this as I should. I’ve been feeling out of sorts lately. I’m stuck in some sort of funk or rut, or whichever is the best way to describe it.

The thing is, I’ve gained some weight back the past couple of months. Realistically, it’s probably only about 5 lbs, but when you’re as short as I am, that translates to anywhere from one to two clothing sizes. In terms of measurements, my waist size has increased by a whole two inches. My super comfy jeans are now super tight jeans, and the muffin top I’d finally managed to get rid of, is back with a vengeance. I feel gross.

But, instead of feeling motivated by this to climb back on the wagon, I feel stuck. I’m in that spot; you know, the one where you know you need to make a change – and you want to make a change – but you just can’t get yourself to actually do it. So, instead of making positive changes, you just make worse choices.

I have a Bod Pod appointment tomorrow. I’m hoping my latest results will give me the kick in the ass I need to shake this funk, but I don’t feel confident about it. I know I need to change my mindset about it, but that’s just not where I’m at right this moment. Hopefully, I’ll feel differently tomorrow.