Yesterday, I tied my longest step goal streak of 20 days – and today, I almost flushed it down the drain.
Although I felt better momentarily after my last post 10 days ago, I’ve continued to struggle. I’m still not getting enough sleep or even trying to do so. I’m all over the place, not just emotionally, but mentally too. I just can’t seem to get back into a routine. Life feels unnecessarily chaotic.
Fortunately, I managed to make a little headway this week. I’m not anywhere close where I want to be, but it feels like I’m finally on the upswing. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. That’s why my near miss tonight feels significant. Despite how awful I’ve felt lately, I’ve stuck with my step goal. To mess it up now would have pushed me back into that hole.
Here’s to a 21-day step streak and to pushing through when the going get’s tough.
So, I’m pretty sure I jinxed myself. Despite getting off to a good start and walking most of the day’s steps earlier in the morning, I still managed to lose track of time and miss my goal by about 2,500 steps.
On the bright side, I’ve been a lot more open about what I’m doing with friends this time around. Before, I would anxiously glance at my watch during our weekly group dinner, trying to find ways to discreetly get my steps in before just giving up altogether or running out of time. On Wednesday though, I told them I had a daily step goal I was trying to reach, so I was getting up to walk around. No one batted an eye or looked at me like I was crazy.
That being said, I don’t want to spend our weekly dinners walking laps while we chat after eating, so I really need to work on hitting my goal before dinner even starts. Now I’m back on track, I;n determined to keep my new streak going. Happy Friday!
I managed to push through and hit my goal on Tuesday, but yesterday was a fail. I lost track of time and ended the day almost 2,000 steps short. I can’t say I’m doing much better today either – it’s already past 8:00 pm and I’m not even at 5,000 steps yet.
I’m struggling. I’m finding it a lot harder to hit my step goal this time around. I’m not as motivated as a I was the first time. I’m not sure if that’s because I haven’t slept much this week, or if I’ve just lost my “why.”
I mean, I know why I want to do this. I can still remember how much better I felt a month into this challenge. It got me to my lowest weight in years and helped me continue to lose inches off my jiggly bits. But knowing why you should do something, and why you want to do something, doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll actually do it. At least, that’s how it is for me.
I need to find something else; something that’ll really get my motivation going. Unfortunately, a lot of the things that used to motivate me in the past, just don’t have the same effect anymore. I’m at a loss for ideas, and I can’t wait on finding motivation to get back on track. There’s no guarantee that I’ll ever find it anyway, so I just sort of have to do it right? Take it one day at a time? Put one foot in front of the other? Focus on each step and hope that at the end of the day, it adds up to about 15,000 of them?
There’s this book called “The Compound Effect” by Darren Hardy. The whole premise of it is that where you end up in life is the result of all the little choices you made each and every day. You may not notice the results right away, but that nightly dessert you choose to eat could turn into a 5 lbs weight gain over the course of a couple of years. The morning walk you start taking could have the opposite effect over a long enough time. So, motivation or not, I just need to focus on doing those little things every day – consistently. That’s how lasting change happens.