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Day 52: I ate a mountain of french fries

I’ve been feeling pretty proud of myself the last few days. I am on a 5-day step goal streak, I’ve been hitting the gym, and I’ve managed to get more mindfulness and water into my daily life. I’ve also been doing pretty ok with the whole avoiding gluten and dairy thing – it hasn’t felt as hard as I expected it to be.

Until today.

Today sucked. Or rather, this evening sucked.

The day started out all right. I had some bone broth soup for breakfast. I went to the gym. I did some work and a little meal prepping. I even volunteered at my daughter’s school for a couple of hours. It was turning out to be a nice, productive day. Then we went out for dinner after visiting the poop museum (yup, you read that right, a museum dedicated to poop). My daughter wanted a burger and I figured I’d be able to find something I could eat there too, so we went to the burger spot.

Well, it turns out I was wrong – oh so very wrong. This place only serves cheeseburgers, and asking for a burger without the cheese and/or bun just isn’t a thing. That’s just not how it works here. So, while everyone else enjoyed what they excitedly described as “the best burgers they’ve tasted since moving to Japan,” I ate a mountain of fries.

I have never wanted a burger so badly in my life.

It was awful. That meal was a slap-in-the-face reminder that having to avoid gluten and dairy sucks big ones. It legit hurt my feelings.

I know I should focus on the fact that I managed to resist the temptation. I should be proud of myself for staying strong and all that bullshit; but truthfully, I just feel shitty about it.

I keep telling myself that it’s just food and that cravings are just mind games your brain plays with you, but it still feels crappy. It still makes me sad. I mean, I love food. Food is life!

But, all that being said, I’m going to bed tonight without stomach pains and I’m not running to the bathroom every few minutes. I feel good physically, even if I don’t feel so swell emotionally – and that’s a good thing. I can’t expect it to always be easy. I know it’s going to be hard more often than not, but in the end, despite the suck, it will be worth it – even if I can’t take comfort in that fact right now.

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Day 38: “Healing” my thyroid?

I’ve struggled a lot this week, not just with meeting my step goal, but with making good choices overall. I had all these plans for today, but I just can’t seem to motivate myself to do anything. I feel sort of out of it. Instead of doing some work, going to the gym, or cleaning the house, I’m sitting here Googling stuff about my thyroid.

I think I may have mentioned before that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism several years ago. As a result, when I was pregnant with the little kid, my OB/GYN suggested I have my thyroid antibodies tested as well. I didn’t really understand why, but I requested the bloodwork from my family doctor anyway. I figured I could ask him about it when we met to go over the results. Unfortunately, my regular doctor didn’t seem to understand why either. He told me my antibodies were high and left it at that. When I asked why that mattered, what it meant, and why did my OB/GYN want them tested, he told me it didn’t matter, the results didn’t mean anything, and that the testing was unnecessary. Regardless of the results, the treatment plan for my hypothyroidism wouldn’t change.

I probably should have gotten a second opinion or asked my OB/GYN about it at my next appointment, but I was having a really shitty pregnancy. That bloodwork was forgotten by the time I got to the car after my appointment. It wasn’t until a few months ago that I started to wonder about it. I was feeling pretty bad. It seemed like a lot of my hypothyroidism symptoms were back, and they had returned with some friends (hello stomach pain and tummy troubles!).

That’s when I read up on Hashimoto’s and fell down the Google rabbit hole. When I came out the other side, I asked my current doctor to test my thyroid antibodies again. I haven’t met with her just yet to go over the results, but I was able to view them online. They came back higher than last time.

I don’t know if my doctor will confirm it’s Hashimoto’s or not, but I was convinced by a lot of the different things I read that I might be able to help myself feel better by making some lifestyle changes. So, that’s what I decided to. This year, I only made one New Year’s Resolution: to take better care of my health.

I kicked off the new year by trying to avoid gluten and dairy. Both are considered to be inflammatory and it seems a lot of people with Hashimoto’s have seen positive improvements in their overall health by avoiding them. Unfortunately, I underwent an emergency in mid-January and I just haven’t been able to get back into it since then.

This month, I added both items to the goal-tracking spreadsheet I use and my doctor ordered tests to confirm whether or not I’m suffering from milk and gluten intolerances. Those aren’t available online yet. But I’ve decided to recommit yo avoiding them regardless to see if it helps. Worst case scenario it doesn’t, and I get to go back to eating pizza. But, best case scenario it does, so I might as well give it a try, right?

 

 

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