I managed to push through and hit my goal on Tuesday, but yesterday was a fail. I lost track of time and ended the day almost 2,000 steps short. I can’t say I’m doing much better today either – it’s already past 8:00 pm and I’m not even at 5,000 steps yet.
I’m struggling. I’m finding it a lot harder to hit my step goal this time around. I’m not as motivated as a I was the first time. I’m not sure if that’s because I haven’t slept much this week, or if I’ve just lost my “why.”
I mean, I know why I want to do this. I can still remember how much better I felt a month into this challenge. It got me to my lowest weight in years and helped me continue to lose inches off my jiggly bits. But knowing why you should do something, and why you want to do something, doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll actually do it. At least, that’s how it is for me.
I need to find something else; something that’ll really get my motivation going. Unfortunately, a lot of the things that used to motivate me in the past, just don’t have the same effect anymore. I’m at a loss for ideas, and I can’t wait on finding motivation to get back on track. There’s no guarantee that I’ll ever find it anyway, so I just sort of have to do it right? Take it one day at a time? Put one foot in front of the other? Focus on each step and hope that at the end of the day, it adds up to about 15,000 of them?
There’s this book called “The Compound Effect” by Darren Hardy. The whole premise of it is that where you end up in life is the result of all the little choices you made each and every day. You may not notice the results right away, but that nightly dessert you choose to eat could turn into a 5 lbs weight gain over the course of a couple of years. The morning walk you start taking could have the opposite effect over a long enough time. So, motivation or not, I just need to focus on doing those little things every day – consistently. That’s how lasting change happens.