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Day 4: Fail so soon?

I managed to push through and hit my goal on Tuesday, but yesterday was a fail. I lost track of time and ended the day almost 2,000 steps short. I can’t say I’m doing much better today either – it’s already past 8:00 pm and I’m not even at 5,000 steps yet.

I’m struggling. I’m finding it a lot harder to hit my step goal this time around. I’m not as motivated as a I was the first time. I’m not sure if that’s because I haven’t slept much this week, or if I’ve just lost my “why.”

I mean, I know why I want to do this. I can still remember how much better I felt a month into this challenge. It got me to my lowest weight in years and helped me continue to lose inches off my jiggly bits. But knowing why you should do something, and why you want to do something, doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll actually do it. At least, that’s how it is for me.

I need to find something else; something that’ll really get my motivation going. Unfortunately, a lot of the things that used to motivate me in the past, just don’t have the same effect anymore. I’m at a loss for ideas, and I can’t wait on finding motivation to get back on track. There’s no guarantee that I’ll ever find it anyway, so I just sort of have to do it right? Take it one day at a time? Put one foot in front of the other? Focus on each step and hope that at the end of the day, it adds up to about 15,000 of them?

There’s this book called “The Compound Effect” by Darren Hardy. The whole premise of it is that where you end up in life is the result of all the little choices you made each and every day. You may not notice the results right away, but that nightly dessert you choose to eat could turn into a 5 lbs weight gain over the course of a couple of years. The morning walk you start taking could have the opposite effect over a long enough time. So, motivation or not, I just need to focus on doing those little things every day – consistently. That’s how lasting change happens.


Day 57: The protein problem

Last night, I decided to use my high calorie day for this week. It was a last minute, impulse decision (AKA emotional eating). I wasn’t in a bad mood or anything. It was a pretty good day actually, but there was just something. I can’t really explain it; I guess it’s just one of my peculiarities – having weird moods.

What is really upsetting about it though, is that I ended yet another day without hitting my protein goal.

Despite the fact that weight loss comes down to calories in and calories out (CICO), eating a balanced, healthy diet is important for overall health. Eating more protein is supposed to be my first step towards starting to make those healthier changes in terms of what I eat, because frankly, right now I’m eating like shit.

But, the thing is, I’m basically acting like a petulant child when it comes to this whole protein thing. The truth is, I don’t want to waste my precious calories on protein or healthy foods I don’t enjoy, when I could use them to eat a cookie (or two) instead. So, while I go on and on about how I’m going to do better to meet my protein goal, I don’t.

I can’t continue this way though. I gave my protein “problem” some serious thought today, and I think I came up with a possible solution. I don’t want to waste calories on healthy foods I don’t enjoy, so I should find ways to make those healthy things I need to eat enjoyable. Seems obvious, right?

It also seems like making those foods on hand and easy to eat would be helpful. The meal prep I did a couple of weeks ago was successful. I enjoyed what I made and ate it all. None of it went bad. I can’t think of any good reason why I haven’t done it again.

My plan to finally really get on track with my protein goal: find some healthy recipes I want to eat and then prep them my way every week.

Normally, I would try to do something like this on a Monday, but I don’t think I should put this off. I need to look up recipes and put together a grocery list tonight, then hit up the grocery store and meal prep tomorrow. The sooner I get started, the sooner I can finally start hitting that goal.

I don’t know if I’ll be successful, but I’ve got to give a try.

Current step total: 20,347

Day 4: Strong

It’s Monday.

I woke up this morning when my alarm went off at 5:00 am, and despite not feeling the best, I managed to get up and hit the gym. Today, I restarted Lou Schuler and Alwyn Cosgrove’s Strong program. It’s a strength training program consisting of three phases of full-body workouts done 2-3 times a week. Today’s workout was Stage 1, Workout A. There was some ab work, legs, upper body, and even a little cardio. It was challenging, but well worth it.

I’d tried Schuler and Cosgrove’s New Rules of Fitness for Women (NROF4W) program in the past and really liked it. Both programs focus on compound exercises, and they start off relatively easy, so they’re great for going from the couch to exercising. I went with the Strong program this time around because although it seems more complicated at first glance, it’s still pretty basic and it’s got the extra cardio component NROL4W didn’t have that I like. I also like that even with that extra cardio part, it only took me about 40 minutes to complete. I know as the workouts progress, they’ll likely take me longer to complete, but for now, 40 minutes works for my schedule. It can be really hard to find time (and the motivation) to go to the gym, so I’m all about any exercise program that is short, but effective (and doesn’t suck). Strong is all of those things.

This morning’s workout also gave me a great head start on my step count, so I’m hoping between those steps and the to do list I’ve got to tackle today, I’ll easily hit my step goal. Otherwise, I guess the dog will be getting an extra long walk this evening.

Current step total: 6,184

Day 3: Today was hard.

Riding the high of yesterday’s success, I’ve decided to try to keep logging my food every day. I don’t plan on making any diet changes just yet – my priority is walking 15,000 steps each day – but I figure I might as well give it a try. And if I fail, that’s ok, because it’s not my primary focus.

Which is a good thing because today was hard folks. It was the last lazy day of a very lazy week. We had family in town and since it’s summer, I’m working less to spend more time at home with the kiddos. Unfortunately, I haven’t been feeling so hot. The adrenaline from the last two days of this challenge have kept me moving, but today… well, today was hard. I alternated between finding ways to get my steps in (like pacing around the house and walking to the grocery store) and laying on the couch complaining of all sorts of “I feel sick” symptoms.

In the end, I have my husband to thank for helping me reach my step goal today. This morning, I decided to tell him about the challenge and blog. I figured I would need to do some walking around the house throughout the day to get my steps in and naturally, he’d be curious as to what exactly I was doing. I’m lucky, I have a pretty awesome husband, and as usual, he was supportive of my latest goal. He asked me what my step count was throughout the day, reminding me to move. He kept me going whenever I felt like giving up. He also kept me from losing my shit (pardon the expression) when my Garmin suddenly went black. For an hour or so there, I thought I’d lost my ability to track my steps. Luckily, it was still tracking and eventually came back online.

Now, after hitting my goal, here I sit, watching Avengers: Infinity War (again) while whining to myself about how gross I feel and hoping I feel better tomorrow in order to workout at 5:00 am. As much as I hate the idea of going to the gym tomorrow, I am desperate to get back into my “normal” daily routine. Without a routine, I feel off, but more about that some other time.

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