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Day 52: I ate a mountain of french fries

I’ve been feeling pretty proud of myself the last few days. I am on a 5-day step goal streak, I’ve been hitting the gym, and I’ve managed to get more mindfulness and water into my daily life. I’ve also been doing pretty ok with the whole avoiding gluten and dairy thing – it hasn’t felt as hard as I expected it to be.

Until today.

Today sucked. Or rather, this evening sucked.

The day started out all right. I had some bone broth soup for breakfast. I went to the gym. I did some work and a little meal prepping. I even volunteered at my daughter’s school for a couple of hours. It was turning out to be a nice, productive day. Then we went out for dinner after visiting the poop museum (yup, you read that right, a museum dedicated to poop). My daughter wanted a burger and I figured I’d be able to find something I could eat there too, so we went to the burger spot.

Well, it turns out I was wrong – oh so very wrong. This place only serves cheeseburgers, and asking for a burger without the cheese and/or bun just isn’t a thing. That’s just not how it works here. So, while everyone else enjoyed what they excitedly described as “the best burgers they’ve tasted since moving to Japan,” I ate a mountain of fries.

I have never wanted a burger so badly in my life.

It was awful. That meal was a slap-in-the-face reminder that having to avoid gluten and dairy sucks big ones. It legit hurt my feelings.

I know I should focus on the fact that I managed to resist the temptation. I should be proud of myself for staying strong and all that bullshit; but truthfully, I just feel shitty about it.

I keep telling myself that it’s just food and that cravings are just mind games your brain plays with you, but it still feels crappy. It still makes me sad. I mean, I love food. Food is life!

But, all that being said, I’m going to bed tonight without stomach pains and I’m not running to the bathroom every few minutes. I feel good physically, even if I don’t feel so swell emotionally – and that’s a good thing. I can’t expect it to always be easy. I know it’s going to be hard more often than not, but in the end, despite the suck, it will be worth it – even if I can’t take comfort in that fact right now.

Day 45: Walking the walk

In my previous post, I committed to avoiding gluten and dairy in hopes of improving my health, but to be honest, I’ve been putting it off since then. It’s not that I’m unwilling to do it, I know I should, I just don’t think I’ve felt ready to pull the trigger just yet.

That being said, I did take some steps in that direction. On Friday, after my metabolic assessment appointment, I spoke to the wellness counselor about scheduling a few weekly coaching sessions. I’ve heard a lot about wellness coaching and how helpful it can be, but I’ve never given it a try myself. Considering the changes I’m trying to make and my history of struggling when it comes to changing my diet, I figured now would as good a time as any to give it a try.

Afterwards, I swung by the library and came across the cookbook section. I looked through what they had and decided to borrow two: “Nom Nom Paleo” (the yellow one) and “The Science of Cooking.” I skimmed through them as soon as I got home and did a little meal planning. I made dinner tonight using one of the recipes from Nom Nom Paleo, and it was really good – even my family liked it.

On Sunday, I decided to make some bone broth – specifically seolleongtang, a Korean bone broth soup my husband really likes. I’ve read that bone broth is good for gut health, so I figured I might as well jump on the bandwagon and see if theres any truth to it.

Finally, on Tuesday, I took some new progress photos and body measurements. Although I’m making these changes for overall health instead of weight or fat loss, I still want to be able to keep track of any physical changes that might occur. I also had my first coaching appointment. It went well. I felt motivated after meeting with her and decided to pull the trigger on the whole avoiding dairy and gluten thing.

I’d like to say I’ve been killing it since then, but it’s been hard. I’m not craving breads or cheeses, but I’ve struggled with “hidden” gluten and dairy. Gluten seems to be in everything, including the gochujang and soy sauce I use all the time. It’s so frustrating.

I’m ok though. I’m not discouraged just yet. It’s challenging, but in a good way, and I’m really looking forward to seeing how creative I can get with this in the kitchen. Hopefully, I can share some fun finds on this blog in future posts. Wish me luck! I’m going to need it.

Day 33: Tracking things

When I committed to giving this challenge another try, I told myself that I would stick to one goal or habit at a time. Once I was able to successfully keep that goal/habit for at least seven days straight, then (and only then) I could consider adding another one.

But me being me, I went ahead and modified my goal tracking spreadsheet after my most recent Bod Pod, and put a whole bunch of stuff on it. I didn’t set any new goals or anything, and I didn’t commit to religiously tracking everything, but I did tell myself that I would at the very least try to track these things. And I have for the most part.

I don’t know what it is about spreadsheets, but I love them. I find them motivating. I like having data to analyze, and being able to see how the different things I do affect how I feel and look, and what I am able to do. It makes this whole process seem a lot less like work and a lot more like some fun science experiment (which would explain my earlier Experiments 1 and 2). It may sound silly, but approaching this challenge and my goals in that way has made it so much easier to stick with it.

My spreadsheet also serves as a great visual reminder for me to stay on track towards making the positive changes I’ve committed to. I hung it up on the pantry door in my kitchen. There’s nothing else hanging there, so it doesn’t get lost among other papers (like the stuff I hang on the fridge does), and I see it everyday. Granted, I guess it could make me feel bad by putting my “failures” on display for all to see, but so far, I’ve found it to be motivating – for the most part (it doesn’t seem to help much with my steps).

Day 23: Bod Pod Results

My Bod Pod results from yesterday were just as bad as I’d expected them to be. From October to now, my body fat percentage has increased from 26.1% to 29.8%, and I’ve gained a little over 6 lbs of fat. The worst part is, more than half that increase happened in the last 6 weeks.

Yesterday’s results:

Results from January 25th:

Despite the disappointing numbers above, I felt pretty motivated to get back on track yesterday. I made some healthy food, went to the gym, and tried my best to get all of my steps in early. I was on a roll until right after dinner time – then it all went to shit. I felt tired, the little kid was cranky, and I just felt overwhelmed.

Although I didn’t binge on junk food or anything like that, I did have a drink or two and then went to bed. I did not check my step total for the day before ticking in, and just like that, I ruined my latest streak. I missed my goal by around 3,000 steps.

Fortunately, I’m not discouraged that easily. I’m just going to get right back to it today. My next Bod Pod is scheduled for April 15th. I feel confident I can get a new streak going while working towards getting my body fat percentage moving in the right direction. I just need to make a little effort (or a big one).

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