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Day 0: A fresh start

It’s the Sunday night of Thanksgiving Day weekend. I’ve spent the last three days eating and sitting around. I feel heavy, bloated, and basically all-around gross.

Tomorrow was supposed to be my next Bod Pod appointment. It’s been over four weeks since my last one, and almost just as long as since I’ve written a post for this blog. Unfortunately, there was a fire at the wellness center building and my appointment was cancelled. I was advised that they’d contact me to reschedule once they figure out if the equipment still works. That hasn’t happened just yet.

I’ve been “off the wagon” now since my last post. I’d like to say that I’ve been trying to climb back on it all this time, but that would be a lie. The thing is, sometimes, the things that motivate me the most, are also the things that make me want to quit. Writing these posts, which for almost 90 days pushed me to get my steps in even when I didn’t want to, were exactly the thing that made me want to walk away from it all – and walk away I did, for a few weeks at least.

But, there’s nothing like that bloated, too-lazy feeling to make me want to get back on track. I’ve felt pretty awful these past few weeks. I’ve felt stressed, moody, lethargic, lazy, and heavy. I’ve been disorganized and unproductive. All of the positive changes I’d seen in myself since I started this challenge, seemed to go away once I gave it up. So here I am, ready to give it another try.

I’m not going to set myself up for failure by starting “right now.” It’s late in the evening, and I’m barely at 5,000 steps. I’m also going to avoid looking back at my Garmin logs for the past few weeks to see what my step average has been. I won’t beat myself up over things I can’t change. They don’t matter.

What I am going to do is start fresh tomorrow. I’m going to start back at Day 1. My goal: walk 15,000 steps a day for the next 365 days. Granted, similar to last time, I’ll likely add other goals later on, but for now, I’m focusing solely on hitting my daily step goal. Baby steps.

Wish me luck!

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Days 83: Where am I and where did my motivation go?

I went to bed last night without hitting my step goal. I knew I was short steps, but I just didn’t seem to care enough to get up and walk laps. I am still struggling with getting back into the swing of things after vacation. It’s frustrating because I’d hoped that the progress I’ve made since I began this challenge would make it easier for me to bounce back from vacation mode. But it hasn’t, at least not yet. I’m still that person who struggles for weeks to get back into the whole “working out and eating better” thing after indulging and being lazy for a week on vacation.

And struggle this week I have. Yesterday was the first day I stayed within my calorie range since last Wednesday. I haven’t even tried to make it to the gym this week. I basically resigned myself to not working out until after my Bod Pod for no good reason.

Even worse, I feel like I subconsciously blew off my step goal. As I updated my goal tracking sheet this morning, I realized that I missed my step goal on Monday by less than 1,000 steps. I hadn’t even noticed.

I need to snap out of this funk and get motivated again. I’ve made too much progress to start slipping back into old habits and start regaining the weight. I just don’t know how to. All of my old “tricks,” like finding a new workout plan, just aren’t working this time around.

Any tips, tricks, or advice would be greatly appreciated.

Current step total: 13,022

Day 54: The ups and downs

I struggled yesterday. I had to walk a whole lot of living room laps to hit my daily step goal, I failed to eat enough protein for the 5th day in a row, and I almost went over my calorie range.

Key word: almost. I’ve gotten into the habit of logging my food before I eat it. I’ve found it gives me the opportunity to think through my choices before I make them. For instance, I made pasta for dinner. I overdid it at lunch time, so I really needed to pay attention to how much I ate in order to stay within my calorie range. I created the recipe in MyFitnessPal as I cooked and logged it, quickly realizing that eating a full portion would bring me to the top of my calorie range – there would be no room for a cocktail (or chocolate chip cookie) after dinner. I decided to eat a smaller portion and save the leftover calories for later. I successfully ended the day within my calorie range and without feeling deprived.

Then there’s today. Despite doing all the right things that worked yesterday, I eventually caved today and threw caution to the wind. I didn’t exceed the top of my calorie range by a whole lot, but I still went over.

I began writing this post to say something along the lines of how one minute you think you’ve figured out the trick to staying in control, and the next minute you’ve lost it; but I realized I’d basically already written that post a couple of months ago when I wrote about willpower. This isn’t a new issue. It’s just more of the same.

On the bright side, I didn’t binge. I didn’t say “fuck it” and eat everything in sight. That right there is progress.

Current step total: 14,729

Day 31: Overeating and water weight

I ate over 3,000 calories yesterday. I didn’t start my day intending to do so; but we spent the day at the amusement park, and there’s just something about being on vacation and at a park full of rides and churros, that makes it hard to make good nutrition choices.

I tried. I ordered a salad at lunch, and said no to the first offer of an ice cream sandwich; but the truth is, I enjoy indulging on sweets at amusement parks. I don’t normally eat desserts. I’m a salty, savory, meat and carbs person. Sugar isn’t really something I usually crave; so instead of feeling guilty and beating myself up over eating one (ok, maybe two) churros, I just enjoyed myself. I had a really great day.

Did I need to eat two churros to have fun? No. I could have enjoyed just one, or split one with my husband (an even better choice); but, I didn’t need to spend the day stressing out about my food choices either. It’s difficult to find the right balance between exercising willpower and letting go, especially in the moment. It’s much easier to write about what I should have done after the fact.

I’m not upset about my choices yesterday. I know food is the area I struggle most in. For me, walking laps around my living room to hit 15,000 steps a day is easy in comparison to trying to cut calories. I don’t expect to become good at it overnight. It’s a process.

Final step count: 17,060

Current step goal streak: 1 day
Previous step goal streak: 2 daysLongest step goal streak: 13 days
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