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Day 60: Another attempt at baking

Today’s baking attempt: breakfast cookies. I followed a recipe, but mine looked nothing like the pictures in it. Mine looked like this:

Looks yummy, huh? Yeah, I didn’t think so either. That being said, they’re not terrible. They taste better than the muffins, but they’re not great. The texture isn’t very cookie like. They’re also not very high in protein. Each cookie is 134 calories and only has 4.5 grams of protein. Granted, that’s more protein than regular cookies, but it’s not what I was hoping for. If all I’m getting is 4.5 grams of protein per cookie, I need the cookie to taste better.

Current step total: 580

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Day 54: The ups and downs

I struggled yesterday. I had to walk a whole lot of living room laps to hit my daily step goal, I failed to eat enough protein for the 5th day in a row, and I almost went over my calorie range.

Key word: almost. I’ve gotten into the habit of logging my food before I eat it. I’ve found it gives me the opportunity to think through my choices before I make them. For instance, I made pasta for dinner. I overdid it at lunch time, so I really needed to pay attention to how much I ate in order to stay within my calorie range. I created the recipe in MyFitnessPal as I cooked and logged it, quickly realizing that eating a full portion would bring me to the top of my calorie range – there would be no room for a cocktail (or chocolate chip cookie) after dinner. I decided to eat a smaller portion and save the leftover calories for later. I successfully ended the day within my calorie range and without feeling deprived.

Then there’s today. Despite doing all the right things that worked yesterday, I eventually caved today and threw caution to the wind. I didn’t exceed the top of my calorie range by a whole lot, but I still went over.

I began writing this post to say something along the lines of how one minute you think you’ve figured out the trick to staying in control, and the next minute you’ve lost it; but I realized I’d basically already written that post a couple of months ago when I wrote about willpower. This isn’t a new issue. It’s just more of the same.

On the bright side, I didn’t binge. I didn’t say “fuck it” and eat everything in sight. That right there is progress.

Current step total: 14,729

Day 44: Rain, rain, go away!

I woke up in a much better mood than yesterday, despite heading into a second day of nonstop rain.

I don’t know if most people experience random “low” moods, but I definitely do. They can be pretty frustrating, for a lack of a better word. There’s no apparent cause for them, and they’re hard to really explain or understand. They’re not necessarily bad moods – I’m not angry or sad. It’s more like a numb feeling? Like I said, it’s just a weird mood to be in.

Fortunately, since I’ve started this challenge, my “low” moods have been practically non-existent. One of the most positive changes that have occurred over the last 44 days since this challenge started is the change in how much better I feel overall. Not just in the physical sense, but in my mental and emotional state as well.

These past couple of weeks, I’ve felt the best I have in years. It’s not that I’ve necessarily felt happier, but that I feel a lot more in control of my life. As a person who was diagnosed with attentive deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) as a grown up, I’ve struggled with adulting. I’ve lived in this sort of fog and chaos, jumping from one thing to the next haphazardly, unable to remember important things, and feeling utterly incapable of accomplishing even the most basic tasks.

Trying to find the right medication after being diagnosed has been a lot harder than I thought it would be. The side effects of stimulant medications can be rough, and determining the proper dose takes a lot of trial and error. Toss is a pregnancy, and it’s taken me over three years to finally get on the right medication at the right dose.

While I’m sure finally getting my medication right has a lot to do with how much better I’ve been feeling, I’m confident the changes I’ve made during this challenge have also had a significant impact. I’m much more active and I’ve been working out consistently. As a result, I’ve been sleeping better. I’m drinking less alcohol, so it’s easier to get up in the mornings and make it to the gym. Now that I’m eating less, I feel less bloated and heavy. Every small change feeds into the next.

It’ll be interesting to see how I’ll continue to change as I become more inconsistent in meeting all of my goals. I like to think any changes will be positive ones, not just in how I look on the outside, but in how I feel on the inside.

Current step total: 9,011

Current step goal streak: 14 days  

Previous step goal streak: 2 days

Longest step goal streak: 14 days

Day 35: Pushing through the suck

My headache developed into a migraine yesterday. I tried to power through it, but by lunchtime I had to reschedule my appointments and head home.

It didn’t get any better as the evening went on.

On the bright side, I had walked quite a bit in the morning and although I tried to make myself feel better with food (I don’t recommend doing that), I didn’t lose too much control. I considered going to bed, even though I was short on my steps for the day, but I pushed myself to walk some living room laps instead. Fortunately, I didn’t have to walk too many and I woke up feeling a little better this morning – just enough to power through a full day of work. Hopefully, I’ll be back to normal tomorrow so I can get my workout in and finalize my work for the week.

Surprisingly, despite still struggling with a headache, I’ve gotten a lot of steps in today. I did a pretty good job of finding little ways to get my steps in here and there, if I do say so myself. I paced while waiting for an appointment and parked farther away from all of the places I had to go to. I walked to little kid’s daycare and then walked laps while both kids played at the park before dinner. I even typed up this post on my phone while doing some living room laps.

I’m feeling pretty proud of myself. Before this challenge, there’s no way I would have walked this much if I was feeling bad. You better believe I would have parked myself on the couch and spent the day watching bad TV, while also binging on comfort food and soda. I may be struggling to hit all of my goals everyday, but I’m in a much better place today than I was the day I wrote my Day 1 post. I’d say that’s a win.

Current step total: 14,762

Current step goal streak: 5 days
Previous step goal streak: 2 daysLongest step goal streak: 13 days
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