I woke up in a much better mood than yesterday, despite heading into a second day of nonstop rain.
I don’t know if most people experience random “low” moods, but I definitely do. They can be pretty frustrating, for a lack of a better word. There’s no apparent cause for them, and they’re hard to really explain or understand. They’re not necessarily bad moods – I’m not angry or sad. It’s more like a numb feeling? Like I said, it’s just a weird mood to be in.
Fortunately, since I’ve started this challenge, my “low” moods have been practically non-existent. One of the most positive changes that have occurred over the last 44 days since this challenge started is the change in how much better I feel overall. Not just in the physical sense, but in my mental and emotional state as well.
These past couple of weeks, I’ve felt the best I have in years. It’s not that I’ve necessarily felt happier, but that I feel a lot more in control of my life. As a person who was diagnosed with attentive deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) as a grown up, I’ve struggled with adulting. I’ve lived in this sort of fog and chaos, jumping from one thing to the next haphazardly, unable to remember important things, and feeling utterly incapable of accomplishing even the most basic tasks.
Trying to find the right medication after being diagnosed has been a lot harder than I thought it would be. The side effects of stimulant medications can be rough, and determining the proper dose takes a lot of trial and error. Toss is a pregnancy, and it’s taken me over three years to finally get on the right medication at the right dose.
While I’m sure finally getting my medication right has a lot to do with how much better I’ve been feeling, I’m confident the changes I’ve made during this challenge have also had a significant impact. I’m much more active and I’ve been working out consistently. As a result, I’ve been sleeping better. I’m drinking less alcohol, so it’s easier to get up in the mornings and make it to the gym. Now that I’m eating less, I feel less bloated and heavy. Every small change feeds into the next.
It’ll be interesting to see how I’ll continue to change as I become more inconsistent in meeting all of my goals. I like to think any changes will be positive ones, not just in how I look on the outside, but in how I feel on the inside.
Current step total: 9,011
Current step goal streak: 14 days
Previous step goal streak: 2 days
Longest step goal streak: 14 days